Diary of a Matchmaker

Published: November 21, 2025
with Hiba & Zaid

We never thought we’d say this out loud… but we were that Muslim couple who confidently said, “We’re not having kids.” Full stop. And now? Alhamdullilah! We’re expecting. This episode is one of the rawest we’ve ever recorded: the real fears, the private conversations, the guilt, the relief, and the plot twist that changed everything.

But this isn’t just about us. It’s about you, the single Muslim who’s unsure about kids, overwhelmed by the world, afraid of losing yourself, or scared of choosing the wrong partner. We dig into why so many of us avoid the topic, what actually sits underneath the hesitation, and how perspectives can shift with time, healing, and the right person.

It’s honest, messy, and very real. You’ll feel seen.

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Episode chapters

[0:00] Setting The Stage: Children Talk
[2:40] Why We Both Said No To Kids
[6:20] Faith, Fear, And The State Of The World
[11:20] Family Pressure And Cultural Norms
[14:20] The Reveal: Expecting After Letting Go
[17:30] Old Age, Companionship, And Regret
[21:00] Trauma, Healing, And Muslim Resources
[25:00] Religious Responsibility And Doubt
[28:40] Gender Roles And Parenting Load
[31:40] Divorce Fears And What-Ifs
[34:40] Special Needs Anxiety And Qadr
[38:20] Immigrant Guilt And Career Timelines